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Hello everyone

These past few months I just didn’t have the inspiration or motivation to write so I apologize for disappearing like that.

Anyway, a lot of things happened during my WordPress hiatus. First, I got accepted into one of my dream colleges in Auckland. My course starts in July meaning I have to be back in New Zealand by next month. I’m actually looking forward to moving back despite all the things I went through back there three years ago… But as I mentioned in one of my previous posts, I have changed. Although I still get a little rattled sometimes, I think I can handle most situations in a mature manner.

Well, that’s all I’m going to say for now. I hope you all are having a great day.

Toodles,

Mica

 

The Aikido Diaries

I was sifting through my notebooks last night and came across a journal entry titled “Aikido diary”. I wrote it after my seventeenth session of Aikido. I just thought I’d share it with you.

January 15, 2012

So far, I’ve done seventeen sessions of Aikido. I think I’m starting to feel its purpose now. The ‘correct’ positioning of my feet should be the least of my worries.

Yesterday, Sensei told me to just go with the flow of uke. That was a wake-up call for me. Well, I kind of knew that I had to do that, but it was as if I was waiting for him to tell me that before I could actually do it. I really hope that makes sense.

I guess I haven’t been paying attention to their tips prior to last night’s session. I’ve been experimenting with the philosophy, adding in my own little garnishes to the art. I was semi-skeptical about it all. I didn’t feel connected. I thought I expected too much from it. I put all my focus on using force to show off, and also to avoid embarrassment- which in fact, seems to be contrary to what Aikido is all about. For quite some time I thought the techniques were not effective, but eventually I realized that I’ve been doing them all wrong.

I’ve come to the revelation that Aikido is indeed an art concentrated on the unification of things. You should really leave your ego and all doubt before entering the dojo. If not, you won’t be able to focus on what you’re supposed to be doing- which is executing the techniques properly. And by properly, I mean performing the techniques with the right mind and heart.

You have to be chill without even trying. It’s quite difficult for me (being a nervous wreck prone to clumsy circumstances) but I’m really making an effort to resort to an Aikidoka’s way of thinking.

I still have a lot to learn, and I’m truly looking forward to that.

Beat-Up BMW

Everyday’s the same
Crossroads and stop signs
Marking my way
Into the dim limelight

I’m running on empty
But that’s fine with me
I still have some booze
And a small pink rosary

I’ve come this far
There’s no turning back
Misery’s a thief
He was caught in the act
I’ve got a new car
I don’t need a home
This is my road now
And I’m travelling alone

With cash in one hand and a gun in the other
I won’t ask for help. I won’t find another
Everything’s fine because that’s how it’s supposed to be
I’ll be on my way testing my own sanity

I’ve come this far
There’s no turning back
Misery’s a thief
He was caught in the act
I’ve got a new car
So I don’t need a home
This is my road now
And I’m travelling alone

Everything’s fine because that’s how it’s supposed to be
I’ll be on my way testing my own sanity

Thirteen Thirties

Hello everyone! Sorry for the lack of posts. I have been busy with exams and the like.

Anyway, my friend Alex and I have decided to start an online business. So far, we’ve set up our facebook page and put up some second-hand clothes. I’ve also been making some polymer clay charms to sell. Mummy bought me an oven for my polymer clay creations since it isn’t really advisable to bake clay and food in one oven.

Right now, we are still brainstorming for ideas and items to sell. We also need to call LBC to confirm the shipping mechanics.

I am really hoping this little business of ours turns out successfully. I am in need of money this year. Haha.

I will post the link to our facebook page soon!

Micax

A butterfly with more than two wings is still a butterfly

“You should have the opportunity to be more than one person with different people because you have that within you. It’s not like you’re faking it. If everyone knows you so well and can get a hold of you, then you’re stuck with this thing that people think you are. You should have the opportunity to reinvent yourself. Because you do-Naturally.”

-Kristen Stewart

My thoughts really amuse me.

I always find myself wanting to be so many different people and it’s scary. I’ve probably lost myself in the midst of finding myself. Then again, living by the quote “Life isn’t about finding yourself, it’s about creating yourself”, I guess I’m doing a pretty good job.

To avoid sounding all cliche, I won’t specify the types of people I’ve become over the past two years. Let’s just say that I usually transition into something that my past phase will somehow abhor. From there, I over-analyze myself and get extremely anxious. It’s a  vicious cycle. Haha.

However, over the past three years of hectic change, I can now say that am a lot wiser and confident. Switching interests and lifestyles all the time may not be healthy, but it does make my life a whole lot interesting.

The best thing about last year is the fact that I’ve finally learned how to embrace change. I’ve realized that over the past years, I wasn’t really struggling with trying to be the ‘best’ version of me. I was only trying to accept things as they are; and now I have. I couldn’t ask for anything more.

Belated Happy New Year, everyone.

Mica x

 

 

 

Christmas Countdown

 

Christmas is just around the corner. Instead of writing my wishlist to Santa, I’m stressing over holiday presents and my personal contribution to our family’s Noche Buena.

Honestly, this is the first time I’ve stressed over Christmas. I still need to buy the ingredients needed for the brownies. Adding to that, I still have to finish off my polymer charms. My aunt ordered ten polymer pendants from me and so far, I’ve only finished making six. I ran out of clay and chain necklaces. Talk about insufficient.

My mother asked me if I could paint for some of her close friends. Of course, out of excitement, I said yes. My paintings didn’t turn out the way I thought they would, but I’m actually happy that I was able to create visual enough images without supervision. I will try and post them here soon.

I only have tomorrow to finish up what I need to finish. The things I get myself into… I should really think things through before making promises.

Well, I have to get back to work. I probably won’t get any sleep tonight! Haha

Happy holidays,
Mica

Fun with polymer clay

Hello!

It’s been a while since I last posted, hasn’t it? I’ve been really busy with exams and shopping for Christmas gifts. I’m nearly finished with the orders so I thought I’d blog about it. Haha

I’ve been wanting to make art but I thought I’d try something other than drawing and painting. I then remembered Charlavail’s sugar skulls! After seeing them all over Tumblr and watching her own tutorial on YouTube, I’ve been really keen on making some of my own.

Polymer clay is an oven-safe type of pottery clay that isn’t really clay (I hope that makes sense).

I started experimenting with the clay as soon as possible. I didn’t want to make the sugar skulls yet so I ended up making a fat swirly thing and some beads instead.

I think I made this sugar skull a week later. I couldn’t find my fine-tip paint brush so the details turned out quite messy

I wasn’t really happy with the outcome, so I painted a picture instead

My other creations

Right now, I’m still adding the finishing touches to the clay necklaces, but I’ll put them up as soon as I finish them!

Happy holidays,

Mica

PS. Sorry for the lack of poise in my writing! I’m on a sugar rush right now and I haven’t properly eaten yet today. I do hope my next post will be better! Hihi

Just another whiny teenage blog entry

“Shape your life or somebody else will.”

Those sayings just impact me more than they should; both negatively and positively.

Positively because they give me a general sense of hope. Negatively because those words take me back to my rebellious days wherein misanthropy was my religion. It was incredibly difficult. I literally had to compromise all my hobbies and interests and make sure that they were anti-society. I formed an incredible dislike towards pop culture and turned to punk rock for comfort. As cliche as it may sound, it’s the truth.

Despite all the insecurities that I had, that phase made me feel like I belonged somewhere. Although being a rebel also got me into a lot of trouble. I became obnoxious and developed an alter-ego whom I like to call ‘Master Omelet’. I won’t even begin on how I came up with that name. That would be on a whole other blog entry.

So anyway, struggling with thoughts is so underrated. It’s the worst thing that could ever happen in my opinion. My heart just never seems to be on the same page as my brain. Most of the time, I feel as though my feelings don’t make sense at all. Conforming to society doesn’t appeal to me… Or at least I think it doesn’t appeal to me. I don’t even know anymore. I’m just so confused and terrified for what’s in store for me in the foreseeable future. I want to be an individual, but I don’t know how I could possibly be one without resorting back to rebellion and misanthropy.

Brighten- I’ll Always Be Around (Live)

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